~ end of hope, end of life ~

It has ended. They are not coming back, farewell to all onboard of MH 370. May your transition to another life are smooth and easy, insyaAllah.

~ crazy musing ~

Its been ages since last I post any entry. Shows how lazy I am in updating stuff. Well, not much to tell anyway.
Started my new chapter already, and its looking good, not great but things are moving, pages being flipped and more words are written.
Moving on, I've been observing life and people. Nowadays, with all the rising price of goods and services, it is getting harder to survive. I mean you still can afford some stuff, necessary items but to live comfortably is hard.
Even getting a job is harder these days.  Some companies offered low salaries, but want those with experience of more than a year! I thought for those who have a degree, they could get a starting salary of 2.5k but companies offered these range of salaries to those having 5-6 years of experience. How are they going to survive? Having family cost money, children cost money and the parent wants to give the best to their kids but its looking tougher everyday.
Even the house prices are ridiculously high, its so crazy that the developers putting expensive prices in this economic downturn. Local people will not be able to afford it, not without working for more than 10 years. But they offered low salary too!
For the fresh grads, when will they afford to buy a house then?
Financial support,  Br1m? Oh puh-lease! Its barely enough for a month of expenses, let alone to help in absence of the subsidy that been pull back.
And now with the missing plane that has yet to be found, moneys been pouring out to pay for the searches, expenses for the family members and lots of other stuff, it didnt look good for the people in the near future.
GST? Oh no, not another disaster. Disaster? you ask me, of course it is. There's so little to save with the income, now we have to pay more? Yes, other countries has implemented GST but they give back to the people. Its sort of income to the country because they might not have other industries to rely upon. This country is rich with all sorts of industries, our oil and gas industry is supposed to be a lucrative business that should able to support the people yet we still pay more for petrol.
Agriculture, we have a rich land that can harvest a lot of things. And yet the palm oil prices keep falling and those who suffered are villagers whose main source of income came from it.
Our economy are being control by people who did not care for other people, their only thought are just to get as much money as possible into their own bank account, no matter whether by using the legal ways or the opposite.
People been suffering man, do something!
I dont think they care at all, despite what they said.
Look at that, so much rambling and complaints. Did you do something to change it, do your parts as concern citizens aina? I dont think so, so stop this ridiculous complaints and do your parts!

ai-na : thats it from me for today, sorry if you cant accept all of the the above but thats my thoughts. I'm free to voice it out,  so shut up! :P

~ the end, the beginning ~

The journey to my adventure has come to an end. I said my goodbye to good ole England,  I learnt a lot over there and gain lots of friends along the way.
Its another chapter in my life that has come to an end and for me to start a new chapter,  a new adventure.
Hopefully this new chapter will bring joy and happiness in my life and make me a better person.

~ counting days ~

Less then a month now for my ACCA exam. Its a bit daunting,  the feeling of anxiety. No matter what, I have to pass all my paper this time around, therefore, it's mean practice and practice everyday. When going to revision class last week, I feel like I can do it but I'm not so sure with ACCA because the last time I can do it too but I fail. This time I have to pray and hope I will succeed.
Today's revision class is not easy at all, I don't understand a thing.  I feel lost all of the sudden now when before this I understand the material. The point of going to this revision class is to actually find what mistakes I made in my past exam but now I am left scrambling around my head trying to figure out the materials for today.
Major problem!!!
Guess I have to practice more :(

~ alone ~

moving to a new place can be quite daunting to some people, especially if you're alone. yeah, you guest right, i'm in new place now all alone! manchester, the home to the famous football club Manchester United. not that i'm a fan or anything but it gave certain vibes being in the famous place, who doesnt know where manchester is.

i know i've been neglecting this blog for almost a year now, so what, i'm busy! haha, yeah right, busy doing nothing that is. well, not that studying means nothing but i have to keep my priorities straight. it doesnt get the result that i wanted with all the studying that i done but i believed that every cloud has it silver linings. it just not meant to be yet so i have to be patient and continue on and not to ever give up.

i'm not good with giving verses of Qur'an or hadith and i do not dare do that without any studies, therefore everything i wrote here is what i perceived in life and people around me. so if you want to add in or correct me, please do so anytime.

i always get off track, aren't i? yep, i dont even know what i'm writing about now.
ooh, i want to share my new purchased. i bought this a few days ago and so very excited to use it. i know some of you might think, 'what's the deal?' but like i said before, random things intrigued me.



beautiful isn't it? my new baby!

yep, i have lots of babies.

okie dokie, need to go now for Zuhur prayer than off to lunch and maybe some groceries later, oh no, some needed groceries. where's my list??

ai-na : need to find some friends here...

~ nothing and everything ~

i love to write, draw sometimes but it takes time and boredom to finish it. that is why my blog has been empty for so long. so today i want to write about nothing and everything, since i have no idea where to start anyway. i'll have my exam in a few weeks, and i have to pass all three paper. it is crucial for me to pass therefore i need to study but i'm lazy, well anyone who knows me will know this. my life is boring because i'm a boring person anyway so nothing exciting happen, maybe someday when i become less boring. how to become less boring anyway? i need to find a job too to support myself as well as work experience, finding job is hard! what am i good at? its summer now so the weather is hotter. i like it sunny as its beautiful but i prefer winter because i love snow! i miss the last snow because i was back in malaysia but its alright i have my share of snow before in exeter. the best thing about summer is you do not have to think what coat you need to wear or if it clashes with any other colour you might wear that day. summer is about colours, lots of colours much like in spring time minus the rain. the sun was shining this morning, and the sky is clear, blue and clear. birds were singing and all is very peaceful. i can see the horses grazing at the field nearby as i cycle to town. oh look, the rabbit want to come out and play too! its a beautiful day and i would love to just lay down under that big tree on top of the hill, reading. maybe some other time, i've got work to do. alright then, want to continue sleeping!

ai-na : nothing and everything...

~ Of needs and wants ~

Really need to prioritise my life. Been having this feelings that i want a lot of things in life that most of them isn't actually a necessity, but can't stop from yearning it. I want this and that because this will help me in this and that but we should actually learn to appreciate what we have and use it according to our needs. And thats the problem, sometimes i fell like all of it is what i need. Ok, i'm blabbering now.
Here's the thing, i really want to travel, go to europe and lots of other places. My friends asked me to join them to Portugal. Portugal! Never have a thought of going there, not anywhere in my list of places to visit! Sorry people of Portugal! But then its sound wonderful, you know a place you haven't thought of going, you'll get a chance to explore and learn new stuff other than a place you already have in mind which you knew about them quite a lot already.
And the dilemma is the money! Yes, i think nowadays people have a lot of dilemma or should i say problem with money written all over it. If i decide to join them and go to Portugal, i'll be in a very tight spot the next few months not to say i have to save and try not to spend too much on food as i really like to eat, a lot. Oh dear! I know that if ask my parent, the answer is a definite NO. No need to ask to know the answer already, they will say that i should focus studying. Oh money, why can't i just grow them in my backyard!

ai-na : revision started already...