Thursday, March 19, 2009

~ busy ~


i am sorry for not posting for a long time..i am really busy right now with a lot of works , presentations and assignments, it is too much for my brain to handle! my life is kinda hectic and sometime i'm losing myself, haha..nothing much to write, hoping everyone in good health..hope to post in again anytime soon..

ai-na : it is too much!!  

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

~ my dear friend ~

Dear friend,

You are so shy and afraid to go forward
You always stay behind others and watch from a far
You afraid of saying your thoughts that you think may hurt others
You keep quiet and accept everything
Even when you disagree, you just keep it to yourself
I know when you feel like crying, you just throw the feeling away
You feel alone but you never say so
I saw the other side of you that peeking out, wanting to come out
I saw everything that you gone through, but you still keep it to yourself
I am sorry for not being there when you need me the most
I am sorry for not helping you when I know you are in trouble
I am sorry for staying away from you
I am sorry for not being a good friend to you
I am sorry for everything…

Sunday, March 1, 2009

~ walking down the memory lane ~

I joined ‘Larian Melati’ today for my college festival. It has been, what, 3 years ago since I ran, so, you should have guess that I did not won any place. Haha! It was very tiring, as we had to run around the UiTM. This is the first time I go around the UiTM by foot! Our starting line is at the back of our college leading to this ‘Bukit Tonggek’ (because you need to tonggek when climbing even using motorcycles, haha!) This bukit is 45 degree (I think) and the reason I was left behind. After climbing the bukit, my leg was like jelly. I started to panic; oh please do not collapse Aina! Alhamdulillah, I manage to continue my run, haha!

Along the way, my mind was flooded with memories from the past. It seems alive, I can hear the laughter, see the faces of my friends and feel the excitement. I miss you guys! I remembered when we were running back in primary school during the sports day (Asma’ Aminuddin , you shine in secondary school! A fast runner at that time); we were competing each other and comparing who got the fastest time. At one time, we support each other; support the house, uhud, badar, khandak and khaibar. I was in Badar from standard 1 to 3 and was in Uhud from standard 4 to 6. I think they do not called that now. Sometime, we will go against each other, fighting of which house is better, and then we forget it all and become close again. Childish, I know. But that make us closer. I really miss those times.





In secondary school, we run for marathon. I remember my running partners, Ain and Musyirah(where are you girls, I missed you!). Whenever there a marathon competition, Ain, Musyirah and I will plan our strategy on how to win. We will start at the very front line and start running at slow pace. Then we count those who run past us until 10 people. And we start increasing our pace, run past them one by one until we know that we are ahead of everyone. We control our running but never stop for a walk. Even if we are tired we still run slowly but moving. In form 2, using this strategy we won 1st, 2nd and 3rd place. Ain in the 1st place, me in 2nd followed by Musyirah in 3rd. That is one of the happy memories that I will never forget about running.



When I was in MRSM, there is a jogathon competition. I still use the same strategy but without my partners, I felt alone. I won, but in the 13th place. Still good enough eh? Running will never be the same without you girls! But I still remember my friends, Syaimaa’, Nabihah, Asma’ Aminuddin who are a great runner themselves. I envied you all. Then, I remember the time when we were in Java. Thinking of you reminds me of what we had done, what we had been through. We learn a lot together, we cry, we laugh and even quarrel. Without you, I am nobody. All of you are precious to me; I don’t want to lose you, never. I always want to be there for you when you need somebody to go through your life. But, we were separated by our future, time and thoughts. Just make sure that all of you are always in my heart. Always.

ai-na : bila nak wat reunion lagi?