~ love sucks? ~

Fewh! I'm back, at last, haha! As always the reason for my lateness of posting is LAZY! Haha, so today i'm 'merajinkan' myself to post. I've been busy these past few days actually with things, important stuff and cleaning, cooking(helping actually, hehe), cleaning again and wasting some times(i love it!).

Well, today i want to talk about love. I'd read my friend's blog and she talked about love, so I want to talk of what I thought about love. Why must there's a love, if it will only make other people's life miserable? And again I thought, if there is no love, what will happen to the world?

Sometimes I question myself, why must people fell in love? How is it feel to be loved by someone else(i mean other than your family and friends)? Some of you might say that I am yet to know the feeling since I am not in love( er, creepy!) Maybe.
Well, some people fell in love at a young age, talking about their future together, planning ahead(that's not wrong!) but, it seem that they are ready to take up the responsibility for each other. Maybe.

I've seen around me people confessing their undying love, their devotion to each other and later separate. When ask for the reasons, ' we're not suitable with each other ' well, why now after so much time wasted? It is not only time but money, energy and tears(when you both quarell).


When you are together in love, you are no longer free to do what you desire. Come on, look around you! There are so much things to do, to explore, to experience. Lots of people you want to mix with, make friends with. When you are with your special someone, you have to tell he/she where you want to go, who is your friends are, what are you doing or he/she might get jealous. Lucky for you if that person dont mind of what you did, but how about you?

Some of you might disagree with what I said here but this is what i felt. You are free to critic me or maybe agree with me. I'm open for that.
I agree with what my friend said, falling in love is about you're taking a risk. Well, are you courageous enough to take it? Ask yourself.


For those who have the significant others, i'm not stopping you to love neither encouraging you. It is up to you to think of your life, your future. You are the one who knows best about your life.

I'm just an ordinary friend who want the best for her friends. I care about all my friends, when you're hurt i felt it too. Whenever you're happy, that's enough for me, eventhough you dont remember me. As yana said, spread the love to everyone(when i said everyone, i mean it! hehe). Love make a lot of difference in the world, it is up to you on how it will be.

ai-na : i'm feeling the love..from my family! hehe, love you all!

~ final, time and holiday ~

At last I’m posting, haha! Took me a great deal of time to do so, that’s me! Final exam for the semester is done, yeah, done for this year! Of all the 7 paper I took, just 2 of them are quite answerable. Others are, well, you know. I just pray that I pass all of it and get DL this semester. Next semester will be tougher and I’ll have to work harder! How am I going to live?? Ok, enough of my whining. Let’s think of what I should do during the holiday, when this is the only holiday that I can say stress-free holiday except for waiting for my exam result.

Typical aina! Wasting her time all day long, doing nothing beneficial. Thinking of it, of how much time of my years of living that I had wasted, what have I been doing all these years? Did I do the right things, things I should do as muslim, as a daughter, a sister, a student and as one of the community member? How much have I contributed during my life? Just the thought of it make me wish, oh how I wish that I could turn back the time therefore, I can make the right things, the right choice and be a better muslim. But one’s can wish; wish that I know will never be granted. Now why the fuss when I was given the chance to make things right by making the right choice now, by continuing my life in the right path? ‘History never repeat itself’, what we should do is to learn from the past and build the future. Never make the same mistake again. Time wait for no man.

Went to Singapore with my friends yesterday. We went to Escape and just how grateful I am to be Malaysian, Malaysia is far better than Singapore even though the exchange rate is high. RM1 for $2.36! Even with all the political nonsense issue that never end and economic rundown, (huh, I really hate it!) I still love my country! (Cheesy, I know!) I have a lot more to write but I’m afraid you guys will get bored with my nonsense. Later!

ai-na : hmm..hmm..hmm

~ first paper ~

hmm..hmm..report for the day. CTU paper is well, easy. that is what i'm worried about. i think i can answer all the question, with little difficulties, but i'm still not sure. i did my best, hope for the best too!

next paper, BEL, yay! (er..) 

i'm reading LAW now, haha..to save time actually. now i'm blabbering!

gambate!

ai-na : working hard.. 

~ time ~

Another day passed and a new day come. What have we been doing all this time?  ‘Yesterday is a mystery, tomorrow a history but today is a gift. That is way it is called present‘ by Master Hugwei in Kunfu Panda. Hehe! I like that movie very much! ‘I am the big fat Panda’ Po. I don’t know the relation to it, but do I care? Hahaha!

Ok2! Well, about the gift I gave my abah for his birthday. It’s a book called ‘Improving your Memory’ and I forgot the writer’s name, haha! Why I wanted to give that book to my abah? Hmm, good question. He said this to me before ‘Bila kita dah tua, memori kita pun dah tak bagus macam dulu’ and that really touched my heart.

So, while we still have the chance to learn at this age do not waste our time and regret it later.

‘Time wait for no man’

ai-na : i've been wasting my time a lot and i've been wanting my mocha! huhu!

~ inner thought ~

It’s seemed ages since my last post here. Well, I feel like posting today, actually for a few days but could not find a suitable time. Fuh! First of all, happy hari raya! It still raya right, hope i'm not that late wishing you all, haha! Lot’s of things to do, work to be done and lots of study involved in my life as a student. Just had my mocha at dinner last night and feel a little energetic, haha! I decided to post something and do my study and other important stuff.
After dinner I went looking for my abah’s birthday present, which is on this Friday. Since my abah loves to read, I bought him a book. Since he was studying now, I think the book is suitable for him. The title? I’ll tell about it later, after his birthday ok? Actually, today I feel like talking about my abah. I missed him eventually and I missed my ummi too.
I’m very impressed and respect my abah for what he did now, before and in the future. My abah loves to study, loves to read all sorts of genre. I learned a lot from him about everything, well except things I learned at school (obviously I went to school, ok). He’s a lawyer and yet he knows about other stuff too. Yeah, I know there are other people who know lot of stuff too but I think my abah is special. Even at his age now he still want to learn and improve himself, always feel that there are lots of things he has yet to learn. I can see the hardship he faced during his study now, how he tried hard to memorize what he had learned and the disappointment on his face when he could not recall or explain it in the exam because of the pain. Sometimes, I feel like transferring the pain to me and stop his suffering so that he can live his life happily and do things he enjoys in life. Impossible, I know but that would not stop me from praying. My abah is a great person and a great father. I pray to ALLAH to help me keep the smile on my abah’s face and make him proud of me.
I feel sad suddenly! Haha, I just want to share with everyone about my abah. Ok, that it’s about my beloved abah! Now a hectic and boring life of aina’s, haha! Early this morning I’ll have LAW presentation, which I’m feeling a bit nervous, as our LAW lecturer is very hard to please. She said, " you don’t have my blessing for this final exam, and all of you will fail my paper as I will be very strict marking it." Why did she say this? Hmm, good question. It is because she felt offended that we cheated during our second test. I know, I know! Cheating during exam is ‘dosa besar’. I read about it in my Pendidikan Islam Form 5, 2 years ago. Well, what do you expect? The test is hard, not that hard actually. It just that we don’t have enough time to study, plus we have other test to think of too and assignment to submit. ‘Procrastination is the thief of time’ the phrase well remembered but still procrastinate. Human! In the night, I’ll have TAX 2nd test and tomorrow I’ll have MUET speaking test! What a busy week! And another presentation on Saturday, Marketing! Owh, how I hate it. Luckily it is in the morning.
29th of October! The first day of my final exam, which is my CTU paper. Well, good luck to me and to all my fellow friends! To my other friends who will be having their final exam or already starting their final, good luck from me!

Gambate!

ai-na : suddenly feel excited to start studying for her exam, actually dah takut sebab macam tak sempat nak cover everything. haha!

~ fasting ~

Ramadhan! The month we have waited for, or are we really wait for it? The answer you may found in you.
This is the time, the perfect moment to improve our self, our ibadah to be a better person. If before this we always say a bad thing, doing not so good things, now we can throw it away. Start doing the right thing by muhasabah our self.

Here are few things we can do during Ramadhan :

1. Tilawah al-Quran
2. Perform sedekah
3. Doing tarawih
4. Do a lot of zikr
5. Do more good things

Few days ago, I learn about something good. Well, it is the story about Muhammad Al-Fatih, the great conqueror of Constantinople. One day before he and his army began their mission in conquering Constantinople, he asked his chosen army. “ Which one of you never missed their solat fardhu?” All of his army stand up, meaning that they never missed it. The next question, “ Which one of you never missed their solat sunat rawathib (solat sunat after solat fardhu)?” A few of his army sit down; meaning not all of them ever missed it. The last question is, “ Which one of you never missed their solatulail?” This time not one of his army remained standing, except one person, him. This shown how great is Muhammad Al-Fatih. As this has been mentioned by our prophet Muhammad s.a.w before the birth of Muhammad Al-Fatih, ‘The one who will conquer Constantinople is one of a great man’.
So, how about us? How many times have we missed our solat? So, in this Ramadhan lets us improve our self and all of our amal. We may not be a great person in a short time but we may start slowly and continuously.

So let us welcome Ramadhan al-Mubarak with open heart …

ai-na : is very sorry with her malay-english translation and very eager to start her tilawah because her sister had challenged her to finish it during this Ramadhan, but later on she thought she will do it because of ALLAH…

~ exam! ~

exam is hard, yeah i know! since long time ago, why? well, we don't study good enough. maybe not fully prepared or last minute study. serve me right! argh! time to change aina, move on now! well, it's weekend and i already got bored. study? emm, i'll pass for the day, maybe i'll start fresh and early tomorrow (haha! like i will rise and shine early, i'm lazy!) try harder aina!

ok, enough all those nonsense of me trying to be good. hmm, life in college is hard! i'm kind of tired with all the study and other stuff, when to rest? i don't know. i love study, really love it, i don't know why. ok, i'm blabbering again. just bear with it please!

ai-na : i'm tired..

~ welcome back ~

i see a busy week ahead, yup! test week is on the way, and honestly i didn't study anything yet. what to do? i just arrived yesterday evening from my hometown by bus and it took me 5 loong hours trapped in the bus! after arriving in campus, i did my zuhur prayer which already at 3.30pm and then start the hunt of food. i really am hungry and yet the dinning hall is closed, argh! 

so, we (me n my friends) went to dc and luckily some of the shop are open. well i did met my old school friends, but i did not greet them, just waved, haha! after stuffing our stomach, we went back to our respected room and i slept!

 i woke up just to do my prayer and continue sleeping until just now! i promised myself to start study today, early in the morning and yet here i am surfing! haha! well, enough all this blabbering, i really want to go study, tomorrow is my first paper and then on tuesday then saturday. Go study!

ai-na : trying to figure out how to study...

~ home ~

it's so good to be home! it's time to get lazy and eat anything you want. i know it kind of so long time ago i posted anything. huh, this is because the connection at my college is so bad! very bad indeed! lots of things happened, events passed, great things done and all sort of other stuff! i'll add some pics so we'll get something to look on. well, next week is my test week! woohoo! i kind of freak out whenever think of it. but here i am, as lazybum can be..haha!Alright then, until later. i'll try to post more often. Here some pictures to goggle on, haha!

i love this dish!

looking good eh!

d best donuts! ok, mouth-watering..

ai-na : i'm having a great time at home + i'm bored = lazy!

~ tearless cries ~

everything turned out bad, nothing gone right. what am I going to do? i tried really hard but still, nothing. i achieve nothing except pure sadness and regret. but i do learn some good things that came its way, but it is still hard to accept it. i feel like i'm running and running to save my life, to make it worth, to prove that i can do it, i can give better but then, i realised, i'm lost! i pray hard so i won't lost forever....

ai-na : what should i do? 

~ i'm home! ~

yay! happy holiday!

finally i've got my holiday, after struggling for study later on exam (which is very hard!) now i'm going to enjoy my holi-holiday! went to see my little sister at her school, went to the beach and take picture! it is great to be together again in a family, me being far away study and my little sister also not so far away, study!
here some pictures to share...

well, i love the beach!

it is peaceful just looking at it!

maybe you can't feel anything or see that it is beautiful, but if you were there you'll know what i'm talking about. it makes you feel free and happy just to stand there and do nothing. well, it will be better if we do zikr and praise The Creator of this magnificient creation. Allah Akhbar!

it sunny today!

those under the tree are cows and goats taking cover under the shades over the blazing sun. my father said those are peanut goats or nuts goats or something about the goat being called peanut(i've no idea!)

bath time!

i feel like i'm in Java again!

i miss Yogya and Bandung and Jakarta and all....

ai-na : what a great day, i miss my ol' days

~ predict the unpredictable ~

salam...
exam is hard, i've spent all my energy pouring all the answer and drained myself! yeah, i feel drained! but, after the exam i fueled myself back so i can face another exam! oh please, help me!

ai-na : please, exam is susah!

~ my baby! ~

i want everyone to see one of my favourite stuff, my baby apple!

i love my baby, this is my second as my first is stolen by a person without a heart! hate that person!

tq ummi for my baby!

ai-na : i'm feeling generous today..

~ one step ahead ~

i'm pouring myself little bit by bit in here, sharing my thought and what i experienced...to anyone want to come along and share my boat, welcome aboard! to anyone want to say anything great about the world ( or not so great!), please i love to know. and to anyone who don't like me or my thought, you are welcome to say so...

ai-na : i'm learning...