~ why me? ~

there's bird shit splattered on my window!! and i cant wash it off because it's on the outside and my room is on the 6th floor, with 5 inch restriction my hand cant even reach it, oh and the rain is not helping! and this is the second time not to mention the worst as if the bird are having diarrhea or stomach flu! it's an eyesore, absolute and painfully ugly!!!

oh, why? why me, why my room, why my window??

this means war birdie!!

ai-na : itch!

~ The ups and downs of Iman ~

Whenever I heard about it, whenever I learned about it and whenever I read about it, i felt something prickling in me, tremor run through my body and my heart ache, I felt like crying over and over. No matter how long I have known of it, no matter how many times it was reminded to me and no matter how many times it was being told to me, the feeling is still the same. It's as if it was the first time I learned of it.

Sadness, awed and respect.

And every time it was brought back to me, it will reminded me of my faults, of my sins. I felt remorse and afraid.

No matter how hard your life can be, whenever you feel down just go back to Him. He will always there for you. It is us who always forget about Him. Just remember, there are reasons things happened around you. You should be thankful of all the things that happened because it shows Allah S.W.T still remember you.

ai-na : reading the story of Prophet Muhammad S.A.W...

~ feels like it ~

~ resurface ~

Snow come and gone, exam done, class started, homework pilling up and notes undone. Time flies when we're not paying attention. So now its time to buckle up, look around and start my mind going on full speed. I need to make up for the lost time.

ai-na : i'm slipping...

~ white sheet of...ice?

no snow, but sleet will do. haha, i'm happy! the weather forecast said (sometimes cannot be trusted!) maybe next week on thursday there will be snow! i woke up this morning and discovered all the building roof nearby are covered in white sheet, not snow, not yet, but sleet. what is sleet? hmm, go search yourself! haha

ai-na : next next week exam! and i'm dallying again..oh no!

~ Snow ~

When will it snow in Exeter? I've been waiting and waiting. I cant help it to feel excited!

ai-na : for those who went to scotland for skiing, bring back snow for me. make sure its not melt!

~ She who goes by the name Maryam ~

Learning and embracing new things in life is not easy. Especially when it changed your life. Its started with a discussion about good people that can go to heaven and lead to changes. 

She said, 'all good people will go to heaven'. Her friend replied, 'no, only good muslim will go to heaven'. She didnt satisfied because she believed what her mum said. Then her friend gave her the Quran with its meaning and ask her to find in it saying about 'all good people will go to heaven'. She spent her whole night finishing it just to prove her point and alas, she apologised to her friend. Something happened that night that caused her to search and learn more about Islam. She begin reading books, asking from friends. She got lucky since most of her friends there are muslim and glad to help her in her understanding. 

She begin to fully practiced Islam since March when she no longer went to pub with her friends because she thought its no longer suitable. She stop herself from drinking because she knew its Haram, she started to find Halal food, she started to learn how to pray and read Quran and she learned to fast during Ramadhan. 

She done all of it without the knowledge of her family because she knew her family will not agree with her. But, her mum caught her during her Eid Fitri prayer with her head scarf on and started to fight with her. Her mum said that this is not the way she brought her up and why she turn from her family. 

She cant make her family understand because she is still new in it. What with the propaganda about Islam, false image shown by the muslims itself. Her mum worried about terrorism!

But she still want to do it. And today she become our new sister in Islam, did her Shahadah in Exeter Mosque done by the Imam itself after the Friday prayer. The imam said, 'no matter if your family are not muslim, you still have to respect them'. When the imam asked her, 'did anyone force you to become a muslim?' She said, 'no'. I almost cry because she answered with confident and sureness. 

We all are happy for her and wish her the very best in life. 

ai-na : A story of Lauren-Grace whom i respect her when she fight for what is truly right.