~ experience the world ~

Am so tired but cant help feeling excited. I cant wait to start working tomorrow! The whole day today is just briefing and registration and information on IT awareness, security and such. Make new friends, whoop!

~ come home ~

Finally after almost 9 month away, i'm coming home. My bus to London will be at 0615 this morning and my flight will be at 2200 tonight. Excited, overwhelmed and slightly disgruntled. Why? Because my suitcase is bloated and heavy! I cant seem to make up my mind, therefore i packed quite a lot of my stuff to bring home. Cant wait to be home, i want to sleep till the next day. I'm sooo tired of packing and moving stuff even though i got help. First thing to do when i arrive at the gate, i want to hug my ummi and abah and dont want to let go! Haha, eventually i have to let go. So, goodbye for now, i will sorely miss you...Exeter! (hahaha!) I'll be with you again next term and right now i'm going to the other side of the world! WooHoo!

ai-na : what a day!

~ end of.. ~

finally, after all the hard work going through the whole 2nd year (really? i thought i played all the year) and facing great obstacles (exams!!!) now is the time for rest before back to study this oct for 3rd year (aww man!). Examless till end of the year, hurrah! Now, i have to start packing all the stuff to move out and to go home! Oh, i hate packing and anything related to it..but i cant wait to go back to Malaysia, i missed everyone but certainly not the weather! haha..

last week i cant wait to finish my exams, but now that i gain my freedom i am clueless of what to do other than packing. i want to travel but not enough $$$, so i'll have to wait. i want to go here

and here

and here

and here

and lots of other places. Lots of dreams to achieve but with limited resources. That's what we called life. So, for the next few days i need to plan my day, yes!

ai-na : Life ain't easy, but it's worth living it..

~ How? When ~

With lots of studying and working happened around, one can never escaped the pressure of it. The problem is, I dont know if it is a stress or just my ignorance for my need. I usually dont bother about it, which in turn make other people worried about me. I'm sorry! Few days back, something happened. It may sound creepy, it did to me. I was at my table doing my report when I felt hungry. I didnt ate anything save for breakfast of cereal. While this is nothing of difference for me because I always skipped my meal. So I thought of making dinner since I already took my chicken out to thaw. With that thought in mind, I get up from my chair and started to the door and...I woke up from my sleep on my bed under the cover at 2 in the morning! Creepy huh? Hahaha..I raked my memories of what had happened and I know that I didnt leave my room, didnt cook dinner because I'm still hungry and didnt finish my report yet since it still as I left it. My mind goes blank the moment I got up from my chair until I woke up. And I remember, no dream at all! That's what happened when you keep neglecting your body basic need such as food and rest. I haven't slept that day and the day before and lots of other time too. My ummi said luckily I was still in my room when it happend, what if I was in the middle of the road somewhere far from my house. What will happen to me? Oh no! Yeah, I'm very afraid of that prospect. So to all my dear friends, never ever try this at home! Haha! Please dont neglect yourself for whatever reasons. Take care of yourself and others too. Because of this small event, I had caused worries to my ummi and my abah. And I fell very guilty! No matter how stressful your life can be, think of the others who care about you. Hmmm....

ai-na: the problem with me is, i dont recognised stress, not anymore...

~ the flow of life ~

easter break is here! excited? no way! i have to study for exam, oh my! days come and gone, and i have yet to see any progress on my study and report. since now is spring time, the weather has become warmer and beautiful with lots of flowers. a lot of people are enjoying the time, picnic and holiday. i wish i can go for a holiday too. well, i cant wait to go back home! i hope it's not too hot there, hehe! i miss everyone! now i really need to focus on my studying. nowadays i cant seem to concentrate enough on writing the blog. maybe later when the fog begun to clear in my mind.

ai-na : cant wait!

~ why me? ~

there's bird shit splattered on my window!! and i cant wash it off because it's on the outside and my room is on the 6th floor, with 5 inch restriction my hand cant even reach it, oh and the rain is not helping! and this is the second time not to mention the worst as if the bird are having diarrhea or stomach flu! it's an eyesore, absolute and painfully ugly!!!

oh, why? why me, why my room, why my window??

this means war birdie!!

ai-na : itch!

~ The ups and downs of Iman ~

Whenever I heard about it, whenever I learned about it and whenever I read about it, i felt something prickling in me, tremor run through my body and my heart ache, I felt like crying over and over. No matter how long I have known of it, no matter how many times it was reminded to me and no matter how many times it was being told to me, the feeling is still the same. It's as if it was the first time I learned of it.

Sadness, awed and respect.

And every time it was brought back to me, it will reminded me of my faults, of my sins. I felt remorse and afraid.

No matter how hard your life can be, whenever you feel down just go back to Him. He will always there for you. It is us who always forget about Him. Just remember, there are reasons things happened around you. You should be thankful of all the things that happened because it shows Allah S.W.T still remember you.

ai-na : reading the story of Prophet Muhammad S.A.W...