~snow, holiday and study for exam~

what a great winter in Exeter! so much snow this year, i'm having lots of fun playing in the snow and building snowman. i'm so glad i bought my hiking boots because of the thick snow, compare to last year. see my snow man, the name Abu!
oh yeah, winter means holiday as well, that means study weeks and exam is around the corner! oh my, i haven't started anything yet!!! well, since the snow are quite heavy, lots of travel route including the airports are closed. i just went to Plymouth last week and our train being delayed. but i like snow so i don't mind much unless you thought of going somewhere.

well, i got 3 exam and 1 test, hopefully will do well in all of it.

ai-na : study plan has been drawn but...

~busy-ness~

who's the busiest in the world? bees of course! why? cant you hear? they alway buzzing 'busy, busy, busy' hahaha
yeah, very lame, i know! these 2 weeks are the most busiest for me, because of the assignments and test. i barely can handle it! well, hopefully everything went well.

ai-na : 1 done, 2 more to go..

~assignments!!!~

sick, sick and sick again! it has been weeks now but i'm still having flu. my week has been very interesting and very busy. lots of assignments and presentation. but still i'm enjoying my days, i've been to nottingham again few weeks back and last week been to stonehenge and bath.


oh, last sunday we have raya celebration with lots and lots of food. by the way, my list of place to go have decrease by 1 place and increase by 1 place! i want to go to grand central station in US!


ai-na : start working now..bye!

~ finally, hello to the world! ~

I am happy and satisfied now that I can connect to the world. Finally after 3 weeks of using mobile internet and carrying laptop to campus just for the sake of connection. Now I can access all lecture notes at home! But I'm a bit frustrated at my printer because the cartridges that I bought are not compatible with it. It's kind of weird since before I can use it perfectly well. Now I think it just back going to campus to print out stuff before my printer become usable again for dont know how long.
A lot has happened since the last time I blogged. Been very sick last week. Caught a cold and flu as well as fever, still not so well now. The thing about seeing a doctor because you're sick here is so ridiculous. You have to make an appointment to see a doctor, and by the time of your appointment you're fine already! If you did manage to see the doctor, they usually prescribe you a paracetamol which they require you to buy at the pharmacy. Dont you think that we can be our own doctor and just eat panadol when you feel ill? Just a bit of advice, if you are traveling or studying abroad, do not forget to bring a stash of medicine especially for fever, cold and flu. Panadol will do as well as other ointment you deem necessary.
Other than that, everything works quite well. Well, I am a bit disappointed in people in general who cannot look beyond what was being written and told by the media about what happened around the world. They keep trying to generalise others based on religion, races and such. Hello people, I dont have bombs in my pocket!!! Sometimes it get annoying and just want to say out loud, this is enough! You are being blamed because of other people wrongdoings, just because you're in the same religion. What will you react when I say, arent your religion and the people who follow it are terrorist as well? Look what happen in Northern Ireland! Look at the illegal occupation and discrimination in Palestine, who actually control the war there? Dont just assume based on what you heard or read, because it may not be the truth. People do stuff like that partly because they are misguided or thought that they are doing the right thing, in reality it is not and actually affect other people.
Rambling! Study has turned to difficult now, need a lot more concentration. Seriously, this term will be very busy! My goal, not to gain weight! and manage time efficiently.

ai-na : having problem with tutorial assignment!!!

~new term, new season, new resolution~

The greens has already turn brown and red, the sign of death, but they are not going to die, they just going to sleep. A very interesting phenomenon, MasyaAllah!
I have settled in quite well in the new house, like it very much. I got a brand new kitchen, who would not like it! The distance to school doesnt change much from my previous house, so i think it will be fine, i'm going to be fine. Oh please dont skip classes anymore! This term i got quite a packed timetable because i'm doing 5 modules, so it will be a bit straining for me. But i'm trying my best now so i will get more relaxed timetable next term since the modules then will be more challenging, not that the modules this term isnt, just! Oh yes, i'm practically spend a lot this few weeks. Not as much as last year but still a lot. Books, bags, groceries and some stuff for the house. Oh, by the way i got a brand new device. Gone now the overly sensitive Satio and come now BB Curve. I so like it very much because its not that sensitive and very practical. I'm still learning how to use all the application that come with it and very happy with it too. Just not that excited about the fact that the camera is just 2 megapixel compared to Satio of 12.1 megapixel. Well, that's the opportunity cost for me ;p Well then, since i've been dreaming and wishing to get Nikon D3000 DSLR, i'm not that disappointed. I just have to save up and keep wishing someone want to give it to me for free! As a present perhaps, right?
I need to make a move now, need to go to city centre. Right now i'm in Law Library, partly studying, partly utilising the chance to use Wi-Fi in campus. So I'm off!

ai-na : stress out because of lack of connection to the world at home! Please be quick 19th Oct!!!

~ ramadhan ~

Ramadhan Mubarak everyone! May this Ramadhan bring lots of happiness and keberkatan in our life. What i like the most about this Ramadhan is tarawih, why? Hmm, because i'm doing my tarawih in Masjid Wilayah. Beautiful place and the imams was very good. One thing i like to share is about the iqamat time. This is for me the first time praying without any barrier between male and female just a rope to divide between male praying area and female praying area. So, i can see what happen around the male area, not that i enjoy looking, just looking. What makes my heart warmth is everytime the imam iqamat for isya' prayer, the men from all sides of the mosque walked towards that voice, towards the calling. Everyone moved together to the front and the view from behind it was as if they were moving towards one goal. It really makes me want to cry since this is the first time i saw such things. Why not azan time, because after azan people were scattered around to do the solat sunat.


One more thing is about sadaqah. Since the first day i prayed there, there is 1 man who will always put in a red coloured ringgit malaysia note into the tabung derma near the main door. As i observed, this happened everyday without fail and always red coloured note. I fell ashamed because i, myself did not do that often enough. It's not that i dont want to, it just at the female area there are no tabung derma ( alasan saja aina ni!) So i respect him and pray that his life will be blessed. Well, buka time is always the same every year. I have to control my 'nafsu makan' to not overeat, so not to affect my maghrib prayer. So i proudly said my control this year has been very good. ( a bit better, hehe)


yummy!

ai-na : i got black eye today! MC..

~ 1 2 3... ~

from the big, big pipes to the small, small pipes. from the mother coil turning into pipes. all have been counted and noted. a great experience and very knowledge-able! when i was first asked to be involved in the stock take, a bit furious and disgruntled because, it's on the bloody weekend, when it is actually the time i want to sleep in and lazed about! but, oh well, i'm glad i went even though it took us 12 hours to finish it, and i have to go to office earlier than i usually did. so yeah, its fun! haha

ai-na: mind and heart clashes..

~ G8 in my heart ~

After a few years of no contacts and meetings, finally we met up today in Gombak. It took sometimes to plan this meeting but finally we managed to get through. Thanks to those who work hard for making it happened today, although not all of us manage to gather together but it still something, the not so formal reunion of generation 8 of the Hidayah Johor school. After a very long time of not being together, everyone already have their own life, some of us still studying here and overseas, some of us already working, lots of stories to tell, experience to share and new friendship were bond. It is a very special meeting. I remember one of the boys saying how happy and grateful he is of finally able to meet again with all the friends and the feeling of fullness in his heart. Some of us may think how lame its sound but some may understand it. He is considered as a new member of our generation since he joined the school in Form 4 but the bond that were created is strong enough for him to feel the ukhwah within us. You see, some of us have been together since we were Standard 1. From the naughty and clumsy little boys and girls, now to a refined gentleman and ladies. We fought, we cried and we being friends again. No matter how many years have gone, we will still remember our memories of each other, maybe not all of us but it will be there in our heart. Someday I hope that we all can be together again in much different environment and situation, to share the stories of our journey in life. Like one of us said, we have to hope that we will meet again together in Jannah. InsyaAllah.

ai-na : happy and elated but now back to real life, work!!

~ i'm officially... ~

yes, now i am officially an e&y employees! i know, i know that yesterday was the start of my 'employee' status but today i start working on some 'important' work! hey, it is important even though i just do referencing, printing and correction..haha! a little tired too since its 8 hours straight working (there are breaks such as tea and lunch) when i used to have lots of time off during study..well, i'll got used to it later! overall, i'm happy and excited..the seniors are welcoming and helpful, and i hope to gain lots of experience and knowledge for my future..

ai-na : i'm off now, got to rest and works to be done..

~ experience the world ~

Am so tired but cant help feeling excited. I cant wait to start working tomorrow! The whole day today is just briefing and registration and information on IT awareness, security and such. Make new friends, whoop!

~ come home ~

Finally after almost 9 month away, i'm coming home. My bus to London will be at 0615 this morning and my flight will be at 2200 tonight. Excited, overwhelmed and slightly disgruntled. Why? Because my suitcase is bloated and heavy! I cant seem to make up my mind, therefore i packed quite a lot of my stuff to bring home. Cant wait to be home, i want to sleep till the next day. I'm sooo tired of packing and moving stuff even though i got help. First thing to do when i arrive at the gate, i want to hug my ummi and abah and dont want to let go! Haha, eventually i have to let go. So, goodbye for now, i will sorely miss you...Exeter! (hahaha!) I'll be with you again next term and right now i'm going to the other side of the world! WooHoo!

ai-na : what a day!

~ end of.. ~

finally, after all the hard work going through the whole 2nd year (really? i thought i played all the year) and facing great obstacles (exams!!!) now is the time for rest before back to study this oct for 3rd year (aww man!). Examless till end of the year, hurrah! Now, i have to start packing all the stuff to move out and to go home! Oh, i hate packing and anything related to it..but i cant wait to go back to Malaysia, i missed everyone but certainly not the weather! haha..

last week i cant wait to finish my exams, but now that i gain my freedom i am clueless of what to do other than packing. i want to travel but not enough $$$, so i'll have to wait. i want to go here

and here

and here

and here

and lots of other places. Lots of dreams to achieve but with limited resources. That's what we called life. So, for the next few days i need to plan my day, yes!

ai-na : Life ain't easy, but it's worth living it..

~ How? When ~

With lots of studying and working happened around, one can never escaped the pressure of it. The problem is, I dont know if it is a stress or just my ignorance for my need. I usually dont bother about it, which in turn make other people worried about me. I'm sorry! Few days back, something happened. It may sound creepy, it did to me. I was at my table doing my report when I felt hungry. I didnt ate anything save for breakfast of cereal. While this is nothing of difference for me because I always skipped my meal. So I thought of making dinner since I already took my chicken out to thaw. With that thought in mind, I get up from my chair and started to the door and...I woke up from my sleep on my bed under the cover at 2 in the morning! Creepy huh? Hahaha..I raked my memories of what had happened and I know that I didnt leave my room, didnt cook dinner because I'm still hungry and didnt finish my report yet since it still as I left it. My mind goes blank the moment I got up from my chair until I woke up. And I remember, no dream at all! That's what happened when you keep neglecting your body basic need such as food and rest. I haven't slept that day and the day before and lots of other time too. My ummi said luckily I was still in my room when it happend, what if I was in the middle of the road somewhere far from my house. What will happen to me? Oh no! Yeah, I'm very afraid of that prospect. So to all my dear friends, never ever try this at home! Haha! Please dont neglect yourself for whatever reasons. Take care of yourself and others too. Because of this small event, I had caused worries to my ummi and my abah. And I fell very guilty! No matter how stressful your life can be, think of the others who care about you. Hmmm....

ai-na: the problem with me is, i dont recognised stress, not anymore...

~ the flow of life ~

easter break is here! excited? no way! i have to study for exam, oh my! days come and gone, and i have yet to see any progress on my study and report. since now is spring time, the weather has become warmer and beautiful with lots of flowers. a lot of people are enjoying the time, picnic and holiday. i wish i can go for a holiday too. well, i cant wait to go back home! i hope it's not too hot there, hehe! i miss everyone! now i really need to focus on my studying. nowadays i cant seem to concentrate enough on writing the blog. maybe later when the fog begun to clear in my mind.

ai-na : cant wait!

~ why me? ~

there's bird shit splattered on my window!! and i cant wash it off because it's on the outside and my room is on the 6th floor, with 5 inch restriction my hand cant even reach it, oh and the rain is not helping! and this is the second time not to mention the worst as if the bird are having diarrhea or stomach flu! it's an eyesore, absolute and painfully ugly!!!

oh, why? why me, why my room, why my window??

this means war birdie!!

ai-na : itch!

~ The ups and downs of Iman ~

Whenever I heard about it, whenever I learned about it and whenever I read about it, i felt something prickling in me, tremor run through my body and my heart ache, I felt like crying over and over. No matter how long I have known of it, no matter how many times it was reminded to me and no matter how many times it was being told to me, the feeling is still the same. It's as if it was the first time I learned of it.

Sadness, awed and respect.

And every time it was brought back to me, it will reminded me of my faults, of my sins. I felt remorse and afraid.

No matter how hard your life can be, whenever you feel down just go back to Him. He will always there for you. It is us who always forget about Him. Just remember, there are reasons things happened around you. You should be thankful of all the things that happened because it shows Allah S.W.T still remember you.

ai-na : reading the story of Prophet Muhammad S.A.W...

~ feels like it ~

~ resurface ~

Snow come and gone, exam done, class started, homework pilling up and notes undone. Time flies when we're not paying attention. So now its time to buckle up, look around and start my mind going on full speed. I need to make up for the lost time.

ai-na : i'm slipping...

~ white sheet of...ice?

no snow, but sleet will do. haha, i'm happy! the weather forecast said (sometimes cannot be trusted!) maybe next week on thursday there will be snow! i woke up this morning and discovered all the building roof nearby are covered in white sheet, not snow, not yet, but sleet. what is sleet? hmm, go search yourself! haha

ai-na : next next week exam! and i'm dallying again..oh no!